Day 34

Nothing to do with the project, just wanted to update people...

I know I'm a couple of days behind on uploading the project photos, you will get them all in the next couple of days, just need to sort them out first before I can upload them, also I have two 2000 word essays due in on Friday...

So I thought I had done a journal last week, but it hadn't shown up, so I don't know what happened there... To be fair it was a drunk rambling about my friend who is depressed. I've talked to him, and I persuaded him to go to counselling as I can't take the full burden of it, especially as it was affecting my uni work. I spoke to my academic advisor who suggested the counselling, and she said if I couldn't take it, maybe I should talk to them to get it off my mind. I may well do if it continues, however, on Thursday night, we were quite happily just chatting on skype then he signed off suddenly and sent me a text "sorry". I didn't know why he was apologising to start off with and then it transpired that he blamed me for his mental state and didn't want to talk to me ever again, so I've not spoken to him for a couple of days, I know he's still alive as he's constantly on FB, twitter and skype. So I've managed to lose my best friend, while trying to help him. I'm a fantastic friend... I think it's also because I told him something that happened to me two years ago, which I've only told my closest friends, and he thinks that I when I said I was worrying about him, I was really worrying about myself. I never worry about myself, I haven't for the past few years, and I never will again, instead I worry about the people who are closest to me.

Then I've had to be dealing with my boyfriend going off to oz for a year, we decided to split while he's out there, but it's really hard. One, being single after 2 years together, and two, not being able to just phone him up and have a chat. We're lucky enough that there's wifi where he is and we can skype almost everyday, sometimes twice a day. But I just don't find it easy to say things that way.

And I've had my essays that I said about earlier, two essays due in the same day, on completely different things. I started one as soon as I was given it, then got given other work, which was due in last week (I finished it 3 days early ). Then because of my friend it's been hard to concentrate on them and the reading for one is very difficult to get your head around. But I want that one finished tonight and then I'll do the other before wednesday evening, as my friend who is currently living in Italy will be here for two days and I don't want to be stuck doing work...

I'm sorry for the long journal, I could go on, but I really need to go get some food, put my washing on and get on with this essay if there's any chance of it being done before midnight...

Peace
xxxxx